Michael Dibdin - Dark Specter

“What if it comes to more than that?” he asked.

“Then you bought the wrong outfit. We’re talking Dacron, Ohio, here. The cheap nerd look.”

“But what’s the deal?”

Russ gave him another of those looks. He was back in charge now.

“The deal is that you get to do what I say, when I say, and keep your mouth shut. OK?”

They went over the details once more, then Russell got up, leaving Pat to deal with his cooling pizza and soggy onion rings. He leaned back over the table.

“Oh, and this Cindy …”

“She’s history,” Pat said, a little too quickly. He had obviously been expecting the question for some time. But Russell knew better than to contest something he couldn’t control.

“Let’s hope she feels the same way about you,” he said.

Despite the implied threat, he had no serious doubts about this. The very fact that getting laid had acted like such a drug on Pat’s ego proved he was a wimp in the sack, Russ reckoned. Look at the way he dressed. The bigger the belt buckle, the smaller the dick.

Russell walked back up Peachtree, passing an old flatiron office block, the winos and addicts in the park, the chic strip with its convention hotels. The air was clammy and still. By this time tomorrow it would all be over. It’ll be all right, he told himself, just like the other two times. Neither of them had been a smooth ride either. The baby had been the worst. Russ thought he’d prepared himself for anything that might come up, but the idea he might have to do it to a baby had never entered his head.

Rick had seen him through that one. After what he’d seen and done in the war, to say nothing of his own uniquely challenging initiation, Rick had been able to talk him through the whole experience. The gooks were so different, he explained, you could learn to kill them easy. With specters it was a lot trickier, because they looked just like anyone else. You needed faith. That’s what the whole thing was about, a test of faith.

But it wasn’t until Dale Watson had failed that test that Russell realized just how lucky he’d been. In the end he’d done fine, put the gun to the kid’s head and pulled the trigger as sweet as if they were back in practice. Even that noise from the basement later, as they were leaving, hadn’t freaked him out. He’d been sure there was someone else in the house, but Rick kept real cool, told him to check downstairs, and sure enough it was just a piece of wood that had fallen off the furnace housing.

The next time out, he’d been in charge. That had been a whole lot tougher, but he’d still managed to justify Rick’s commendation after his initiation in Renton: “This guy is the real deal.” First of all they’d had to get there. Kansas City wasn’t as far as Atlanta, but it still meant days on buses. It wasn’t a question of the money. They could have taken a plane and stayed at the best hotel in town, but that would mean passing through the hands of endless service personnel, any of whom might remember them. It would mean presenting documents and credit cards, and ending up on a computer somewhere. It was safer to travel poor and anonymous, down in the uncharted, free-flowing depths where no one cared where you were coming from or what you were doing, or even whether the name you gave was your own.

The hotel Russell was staying at in Atlanta was far from being the best in town, and by midnight he began to wonder whether it might not have been better to take the slight risk involved, pay extra and get a good night’s sleep. Nothing too fancy, maybe a HoJo, something like that. He’d had a lot of trouble adjusting to the climate ever since he arrived, but so far he’d been able to dismiss this as a matter of no importance, a trivial local particularity like the way southerners spoke. Now it took its revenge.

The night was sticky, hot, damp and airless. In theory the hotel had air-conditioning, but all the unit in Russ’s room produced was a flimsy draft only slightly cooler than the air in the room itself. Being from the Northwest, Russ automatically opened the window. That was a big mistake. The whole room started throbbing with the noise of traffic on the interstate right below the hotel, while a syrupy influx of moisture-laden air instantly pushed the conditions from the uncomfortable to the unbearable. The electric fan did nothing but stir the miasma around.

Calling the desk didn’t help either. Russ hesitated before taking this step, not wanting to impress himself on the guy’s mind. Some chance. The clerk’s mind was tuned to a whole other wavelength.

“No outlet!” he told Russ when he phoned to ask if the AC could be turned up.

“A vent?” Russ replied, not getting it. “Sure there’s one. It’s just it doesn’t condition the air worth a damn, you know what I mean? I’m like suffocating up here is what I’m saying. And I’ve got a big day tomorrow, so I need my sleep.”

“Limited sight distance!” said the clerk, and hung up.

On top of everything else, Russ had a recurrence of the vicious migraine which had tormented him for so many years. When he was accepted into the Sons of Los, it had ceased, as though to prove the power of the Secret. Now it was back, and he was powerless to deal with it. He’d given up carrying painkillers since the migraines had left him, and even if he found a drugstore open this time of night, the stuff they sold without a prescription wasn’t worth shit.

He tried everything: a cold shower, push-ups, light on, light off, lying down, sitting up. He even tried reading some verses from the scriptures he’d brought with him. Nothing made any difference to the particle of agony lodged in his skull. It wasn’t just the pain that drove him wild but the prospect of the next day. He’d need to be at his very best, and the way things were going he’d be about his worst. Laid out on his bed, the raptor pecking at his brain, he thought about Andy’s initiation in Kansas, replaying it like the video he’d made at the time.

Jesus, that had been tough! They’d done everything right. The woman had come to the door, Andy’d shown the gun and forced her back inside. Far as they knew, there was just the old guy in the wheelchair and her to deal with. They’d gagged him with a patch of duct tape and tied his wrists to the arms of the chair the same way, then trussed the woman. How were they to know there was a guy painting the kitchen? He’d opened the door, taken one look and dodged back inside. Luckily there was no lock on the door and no phone in there. But when they went in after him, the guy had thrown the contents of his paint tray at them before Andy could take him down, and the very next moment the old bitch next door starts hammering at the front door!

Realizing they couldn’t kill her too had been the worst. It would have been so easy, a shot to the skull and another corpse to add to the pile on the floor. But she hadn’t been in the designated house, so they had to keep her alive, same as Lenny and his initiate in St. Louis had been forced to do with the security guard they had to con to get into the high-rise in the first place. There wasn’t a damn thing they could do except tie him up and gag him, even though he’d seen them both and could identify them later.

He and Andy had backed the woman into her own pad, then barricaded her in the bathroom by pushing a big fridge up against the door. They’d taken a coat and scarf to cover the stains on Andy, who’d caught most of the paint, then coolly walked out and waited for the bus while the cops swarmed around like wasps around a barbecue. It had taken a lot of nerve, knowing the woman might identify them at any moment. But everything had gone smoothly. The whole secret was not trying to hide. No one would believe that the men who’d just wiped out a household in cold blood would be standing at a bus stop just a few blocks away.

They would use the same scenario here. Where everyone thought cars, taking the buses was like putting on a cloak of invisibility. Sometimes, like Russ’s initiation, they couldn’t do that. That time they’d gone on bicycles, bought for cash from a shop with a high turnover and later abandoned to be stolen. But around Seattle was different. Anyone on a bike in this part of Atlanta would stick out a mile. They would take separate buses, so they wouldn’t be seen together until they reached the scene. And afterward they’d leave the same way, Pat direct northbound, Russ heading south to the terminus at Hapeville, where he could pick up MARTA back to his hotel.

He lay on his bed of pain, clutching his head in the dense, sultry atmosphere, trying to hold the whole thing together. It was all there, he just had to contain it, to stop it from slipping away. Plus he must remember to make that call home. After what happened with Dale, they were going to be real anxious if they didn’t hear. He’d do it right after he called Pat.

After a night of bloodless torture, the migraine suddenly abated just as the sky outside was starting to grow light. Utterly exhausted, Russell collapsed, hugging his pillow damp with sweat. When he awoke, it was full daylight and the room was vibrating with the noise of a demolition project in progress on a neighboring block. Russ looked at his watch. It was twenty past ten. He reached for the phone, dialed the number of the motel. It rang and rang, then someone picked up.

“Uh huh?”

A woman.

“This 118?”

“Uh huh.”

There was a silence.

“Who is this?” the woman demanded.

Russ hung up. So his instinct last night had been right. Pat had lied about Cindy. There was no telling what she might have found out about him, and how much more she might have guessed. She would have asked questions, the way women always do, and Pat was a lousy liar.

He dressed and walked seven blocks down Peachtree to Macy’s, where he bought an outfit identical to the one he had specified for Pat the night before. He also bought a plain black suitcase. Putting the other purchases in this, he returned to the hotel, picking up a Big Mac and fries to eat in his room.

That afternoon he slept some more, a fitful, oppressive drowse infested by dreams so real it was like watching clips from a movie. The last featured a ringing telephone, and the noise of the bell was so loud and peremptory that Russell woke up, convinced that someone was calling him. The phone by his bed was silent. He checked his watch and realized that it was time to go.

He showered and changed into the clothes he had bought, then checked his appearance in the mirror. The hair was maybe a little long, but he would pass. He took the Gideon Bible from the drawer by the bed and put it in the empty suitcase, along with a copy of The Watchtower and some leaflets with titles like “Can the Dead Harm the Living?” A guy had been handing them out some place he’d changed buses. Russell had been about to tell him to go piss up a rope when he’d had an idea.

Religion was big down in the South. Everyone was into it, whites and blacks alike. So he’d got chatting with the guy and come away with a wad of literature which they would put to good use that evening. No one would think twice about a couple of guys in suits pitching their particular brand of redemption door to door. All they had to do was visit a couple of houses on the street first, then hit the target. “Hi, how are you folks doing today? We’re calling on people in this neighborhood to tell them about God’s plans for you.” Which was true enough, except they weren’t planning to tell them.

At six forty-five, Russell checked his preparations for the last time, picked up the suitcase and rode the elevator down to the lobby. Russ gave the night clerk a curt nod. An extravagant smile split open the man’s shining face.