Mons Kallentoft - Autumn Killing

In the distance he can see the copper-green spire of the cathedral, the numbers on the clock shining through the veils of mist and low dark clouds of the evening.

‘Wait outside the car. I’ll be there at eleven o’clock.’

Jerry looks at his watch, wipes the rain from his eyes, knows how to handle this.

Then he sees a car turn into the car park, a red Golf that pulls up alongside him, and a man the same age as him gets out.

Is that you, Jonas? Jerry thinks. Jonas Karlsson, you who saved me long ago.

No. Not Jonas, someone else.

Instead of waiting for the man in the green jacket to start talking, Jerry leaps at him, forcing him up against the door of the Range Rover, taking a stranglehold of his neck and snarling: ‘What the fuck do you think you’re doing? Whoever the fuck you are. Do you think I’m going to take this sort of shit from anyone?’

And the man in the green jacket sinks, his body slumping in fear, and he says: ‘I didn’t mean anything. Sorry. I didn’t mean it.’

‘What you wrote about that New Year’s Eve is wrong.’

‘Yes. I was wrong.’

‘How did you hear about it?’

‘A letter.’

‘Who from?’

The hand gripping the man’s neck getting tighter, his voice getting weaker.

‘I don’t know. But the letter was postmarked in Tenerife.’

Jochen.

‘And who are you?’

‘Someone who got in your way. You didn’t even notice.’

The man in the green jacket says his name, and Jerry searches his memory but nothing springs to mind.

‘I don’t give a shit who you are.’

With all his strength he throws the man in the green jacket to the ground. Kicks him, screaming: ‘Who the fuck are you?’

And the man groans his name again, says: ‘Andreas Ekstrom was the only friend I ever had.’

Jochen.

Punta del Este. I should have kept my mouth shut. God knows how you got hold of this tragic loser. But if you want to you can find out anything, can’t you?

More kicking. Hitting soft flesh beneath the green jacket, and it feels good.

‘And now you want money, do you? My money, is that it? Stay away from me. Otherwise this is going to turn out really fucking badly.’

More groaning, the rain like a solid monochrome mass in the air.

Jerry leaves the man behind him, in the rear-view mirror he sees him writhing on the tarmac, trying to get up.

Back home in his big, empty castle he brings up a number on his mobile phone, wants to call the woman who is waiting to hear his voice.

But the phone call is never made, and remains as inaudible whispering inside Jerry’s head. Instead the sound of rotating, hungry lawnmower blades takes over, the drumming of feet on the grass, feet that can never carry their body far enough or close enough.

Axel Fagelsjo hears the doorbell, vaguely, like a cry for help from an already long forgotten dream.

Who the hell can this be? he thinks as he walks through the sitting room, past the portraits of his ancestors.

The police again? Can’t they leave me in peace? Alone with all my mistakes and inadequacies, with all the love I’ve lost.

Those damn journalists? He’d had to unplug his phone and disconnect the doorbell. But now he’s put them back in. He thought they’d got tired of him, the fourth estate.

Grief.

For you, Bettina, for our son. That’s all I’ve got left now.

I want to be left in peace with it.

The doorbell sounds shrill now. A salesman? A Jehovah’s Witness?

Axel Fagelsjo looks through the peephole, but there’s no one there.

What the hell?

He looks again.

The stairwell, empty and silent. Is someone after me now? he has time to wonder before the door flies open, hitting him in the forehead and making him stagger backwards.

Lying on the parquet floor, he finds himself staring into the barrel of a rifle. He sees long black hair and a pair of eyes full of longing, desperation and loneliness.

The house in the clearing is still silent and dark.

Now that daylight is no longer lighting up the facade it looks even more anxious, as if it were on the point of collapsing under the weight of all the sorrows it has been forced to contain.

Malin and Zeke stop the car. Anders Dalstrom’s red Golf is still not there.

They get out, and Malin takes a deep breath, trying to work out if there’s anyone apart from them there.

‘He isn’t here,’ she says. ‘Where the hell could he be?’

They go up the steps, look through the window in the front door.

A computer is flickering on the table in the living room.

Malin checks the door handle. Unlocked.

‘We can’t go in,’ Zeke says. ‘We need a warrant.’

‘Are you kidding?’

‘Yes. I’m kidding, Fors. The door’s open. Obviously we suspect a break-in.’

They go inside.

The gun cabinet in the living room.

Malin goes over and finds it unlocked. A solitary shotgun inside. Rifle ammunition on the floor, but no rifle.

Has he got another gun? Malin wonders, then says: ‘Wherever he is right now, he could be armed.’

She goes into Anders Dalstrom’s bedroom. The blinds are closed and the room is dark and cold, damp.

A film projector has been set up on a bench, reels of film scattered across the floor, unrolled.

A film is sitting in the projector. Without thinking, Malin switches it on, and on the white wall she sees a boy moving across a grass lawn, running, screaming soundlessly as if he’s running from something, as if there’s a monster holding the camera, ready to catch him if he trips or runs too slowly.

Then the boy stops. Turns towards the camera, trying to look beyond its lens, cowering as if preparing to be hit, the black pupils of his eyes like little planets of fear.

The reel comes to an end.

Zeke has crept in behind Malin, put a hand on her shoulder and says: ‘I could have done without seeing the look in his eyes.’

They leave the room. In the living room, the computer screen is showing the online telephone directory, and Zeke reads out loud: ‘Axel Fagelsjo. 18 Drottninggatan. What the hell is he up to?’

‘Axel Fagelsjo,’ Malin says. ‘Do you think he’s going straight to what he thinks is the source of the evil? The man who beat up his father and turned him into an abusive parent?’

Zeke’s face is half illuminated by the glow of the screen, raindrops glistening on his head.

‘So you’re sure now?’

‘Yes, aren’t you?’

Zeke nods.

‘Should we call for back-up at Fagelsjo’s apartment?’

‘Yes, we’d better,’ Malin says.

‘I’ll call,’ Zeke says, and Malin hears him talking to the duty-desk, then he gets put through to Sven Sjoman.

‘We think it checks out,’ Zeke says, and Malin can hear him trying to sound urgent and factual. ‘Things have been moving quickly, we haven’t had a chance to call. Karin’s comparing the handwriting.’

Silence.

Probably a mixture of praise and cursing from Sven. They should have called earlier, once they found out that Sixten Eriksson was Anders Dalstrom’s father.

‘Who knows what he’s thinking,’ Zeke says. ‘He’s probably pretty desperate by now.’

Once they get outside again Malin heads over to the workshop.

The door is ajar. Zeke is right behind her.

Is he in there? She pulls out her pistol. Carefully kicks the door open with her foot.

An old, black Mercedes.

She peers inside. Silent, empty.

‘That could be the black car Linnea Sjostedt saw,’ Zeke says.

Malin nods.

The next minute they’re back in the car again.

Their speed seems to blur the forest and the rain into one single element. Is Anders Dalstrom already inside Axel’s apartment with him? Or is he somewhere else entirely?

Jerry Petersson.

Fredrik Fagelsjo.

Was it your arrogance that finally caught up with you? Your actions? Your vanity? Your fear? Or something else?

Sven Sjoman and four uniformed officers are inside the apartment on Drottninggatan. They picked the lock. The apartment is empty, no sign of Axel Fagelsjo, and no signs of a struggle.

Malin and Zeke arrive fifteen minutes later.

‘Good work,’ Sven says to Malin as they stand in the middle of the sitting room looking at the portraits on the walls. ‘Bloody good work.’

‘Now we just have to find Anders Dalstrom,’ Malin says. ‘And some concrete, conclusive evidence.’

‘We’ll find it,’ Sven says. ‘Everything points towards him.’

‘But where the hell is he?’ Zeke says. ‘And where the hell is Axel Fagelsjo?’

‘They’re together,’ Malin says. ‘I think they’ve been together much longer than either of them realises,’ she goes on. Thinks: if Axel Fagelsjo is in Anders Dalstrom’s hands, it’s my job to rescue him. But is it really worth me worrying about him? How can I have any sympathy for someone I find revolting in so many ways?

Then her mobile rings. Karin Johannison’s calm, assured voice at the other end: ‘The handwriting on the sign on the door and the blackmail letter are the same. The same person wrote the letter.’

Anders Dalstrom, images from a life

There are no explanations.

They’re pointless, and no one can be bothered to listen to them.

But this is my story, listen to it if you want to.

Father.

Your one working eye behind the lens of the camera, you say the pictures will resemble the way you see the world, with no depth of perception, and without any real hope. Did I inherit your hopelessness, your diffidence about life?

You must have been the most bitter and frustrated person on the planet, and you took that anger out on me, and I learned to creep out of the way, to disappear from the flat in Linghem and stay away until you calmed down.

People would see me, and there was talk about how you beat me and Mum because of your bitterness about your lost eye, your agony.

I saw you, Father, behind the camera, and I would run to you in spite of your anger, but I hesitated, instinctively, and I took that hesitancy with me in my dealings with other people.

At school I was alone at first, then they started getting at me, and none of the teachers could be bothered to care. They hunted me, hit me, mocked me, and I would shrink into the corners. One day, in year 4, they pulled my clothes off and I ran across the playground naked through the snow, and they chased me in front of a thousand eyes, and they kicked me when I fell.

They pulled me into the school building.

They forced my head into a toilet full of excrement and urine.

They did this over and over again and in the end I didn’t even try to escape. They could do what they liked, and my subordination made them even angrier, wilder, more bloodthirsty.

What had I done? Why me?

Because of the slouched shoulders you gave me, Father? The ones we have in common?

Stop, someone shouted one day, and then a muscular, confident frame was attacking the hunters, hitting them, giving them nosebleeds, shouting: ‘You’re not going to attack him again. Ever.’

And they didn’t.

I had finally gained an ally.

Andreas. Recently moved in from Vreta Kloster.

On his very first day at school he made me his. I’ve never understood why he wanted to be my friend, but maybe that’s just what friendship is like; just like evil, it suddenly shows up where you least expect it.

I lived through Andreas during those years, and his family would sometimes open their home to me, I remember the smell of fresh-baked buns and raspberry syrup, and his mother who used to leave us alone. What we got up to? The things boys do. We turned our little world into a big one, and I never really came home any more. You couldn’t reach me, Father, thanks to Andreas.